@ 31 Weeks

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Possibly the scariest thing that could happen to any pregnant woman.

So on 31/8 i was 30+6weeks and had gone for a cervix measurement scan at adc b4 seeing dr ann. At my 28 weeks checkup i mentioned that i had loads of discharge and some spotting during the kl trip and she suspected i might have a short cervix hence this scan.

It was a vaginal scan. The filipino sonographer barely inserted the long stick into my vajayjay and we saw something strange on the screen. Wait is that my waterbag?? It seems to be a full view of my waterbag with something floating in it. The placenta or the babys foot? I can suddenly sense the sonographers face turning a lil panicky. She told me not to move while she got her senior. This indian lady then went hmm urrrmmand said maam we need to get u on a wheelchair. A porter will come n bring u to see yr gynae and she will explain to u. By this time wan and i are totally lost.. Like wth is happening? Is sthg wrong with e baby?

So i was pushed to clinic B and dr ann immediately made me lie on the examining table and measured my tummy with a measuring tape and said.. Ok thats it im sending u to e labor ward. Your scan said ure fully dilated.. WHAT THE FUCKKK?? But i dun want to give birth now! Im only 31 weeks!!!.. Dr ann made calls to delivery ward coz apparently she was also panicking. She said they will see what the docs can do but shes def not doing VE on me at the clinic coz she might burst e waterbag. SIGH

So while im being pushed to e labor ward, i made several calls to many2 ppl esp my boss coz tmrw im supposed to attend e annual stocktake with auditor. Got to e ward, apparently they were ready for me. Quickly made me sign forms, change into scrubs, steroid injection, hook to ivs and ctg and there was also a bbay cot with oxygen tank nearby. Wan went out to make calls n register me while im still trying to process whats going on. Im 30+6 eks to be exact n i dun even know if this baby is going to survive. Her est weight was only 1.8kg n i started tearing.

Wan left ard 10pm and i was still stuck to e bed. Im not allowed to move and had to use bedpan to pee. Had my 2nd dose of steroids at ard 5am which made my arms n face tingle. Apparently this is to quickly mature the babys lungs should she come out now. By e next a.m
 It was clear i wasnt giving birth. No contractions or waterbag burst so i was transferred to a normal ward

I was in Ward B1 apparently. 4 beds bt only 1 occupied by me bt my form stated ward A. Had the toilet and showers all to myself. I later learnt that due to the high risk nature of my pregnancy theyve placed me there 1st instead of e normal ward. I was sent for cervix scan again for the next 3 dayz n monitored by ctg. By fri dr ann came n did a VE and insisted that my cervix was closed.. Like how it was when she VE me at my 28weeks checkup. Cervix felt soft like how someone who had given birth.. Obviously. So she sent me down again for another scan this time with the senior sonoghaphers watching and finally they concluded.. Yes my cervix is closed but so so thin.. Only 0.15cm. Was put on progesterone and cervix went up to 0.8. By 4th day saturday, they transferrd me to ward C.. Oh my what a world of difference. Thank god i only stayed till monday noon. I insisted to be discharged bcoz honestly it was so noisy with no privacy i hardly slept. On strict bedrest at home now. Alhamdullilah gonna hit 34 weeks tomorrow

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